the silence within

wishing for time to stop

2009-07-03T09:02:00.005+08:00

so one week has passed since ive arrived back in this sunny island. ive been to suntec, sentosa, and pretty much all around stuffing myself with all the foods that i have missed while im there. It felt a little different this time round. Its hard to explain but after soo long of being lonely and doing things by myself, it feels good to be surrounded by soo much attention and love.

the love ones that came to fetch me

looking tired after the 8 hours of sleepless flight

Surprise birthday celebration for dad

throughout the good times, the bad times, the lonely times, the crying times, always being there for me and not giving up on me, and now that im back, showering me with soo much love and trying their best to make me happy. i just have to enjoy this while it last. Love the fam and i love u bf.

i cant wait to meet up with more ppl during this short trip back here.

Just Let me Know

2009-06-14T19:33:00.003+08:00

I can’t read your mind
I need you to say it

Plain and simple
I would give my life to you
Everything you needed
Baby I would be it
You’re the only one I talk to
Who really knows me
Tells me shows me
That it’s enough sometimes just to be myself

I don’t want nobody else
They don’t understand
That I gave away my heart
The moment that I shook your hand

Take my breath away
Buy me anything I ask
Go anywhere I wanna go
I traded everything just to know

Chorus
Let me know you love me
Let me know you care
Let me know you’re thinking of me
When I can’t be there
Let me know you miss me
Call me up sometimes
I don’t wanna go but boy you gotta let me know

Stop and listen
It’s my thoughts calling your name
Screaming out the way I feel
I wish you would do the same
I think you might be on the same border
Same line same page
I’m tired
Listening to your silence brings the water to my eyes

I don’t want nobody else
They don’t understand
That I gave away my heart
The moment that I shook your hand

Don’t let me in the dark
Let this blind over my eyes
If you don’t feel the same
Is everything we have a lie?

Chorus

Please give me a reason to stay
Gotta get us back on track
Cause the worst thing is
Loving someone who doesn’t love you back
I think you do but I need you to say it

I can’t read your mind
Tell me from time to time
I need you to say it
Need you to tell me (2x)

Chorus

I can’t read your mind
I need you to say it (2x)

Let me know you love me

Let me know you care

*cant wait

weariness and late nites

2009-05-21T00:44:00.013+08:00

The hectic week of assignments have finally passed and boy am i relieved. Immuno presentation went pretty well for my group. Managed to present well and ans the questions by Matt Sweet and the tutor so thumps up for us. One more presentation to go this week and im done.
Its revision revision revision time right now and i still have lots read up on. Exams is coming in less than 3 weeks so ive got to really give it my all.

Our awesome group with our awesome purple poster (as quoted by caitlin)

Ekin with our poster

The gorgeous Caitlin (future doctor) and me

Juliana, our tutor and one of our assessor for this presentation

Just some random shots taken in sch while waiting for our next lecture.

time to decide on wads important.

time is not on my side

2009-05-13T00:19:00.004+08:00

Prac exam is finally over..no more looking at picture of cells, connective tissues, fibrins, necrosis, absess, cirrhosis...phew...
3 more assignments and 2 more presentations to go!

*i miss my poly days with my frens =(

Its time to let u taste ur own medicine.

2009-05-09T10:32:00.003+08:00

Its amazing that i can be patient this long...This is so not the normal me...is it because im immune to it all?
Why shud i even bother caring abt people who constantly doesnt care abt me. They dun bother, they dun care and they dun think and they constantly hurt my feelings....and i thought they were suppose to know better?
i thought there was still sth good in them...but i was wrong.
Dun push my limit anymore. uve pushed it too far.

when all i wanted is you

2009-05-08T13:14:00.014+08:00

I know that i have not updated this blog for ages and ages. I just didn't have the mood for blogging like i used to. Life has been pretty fine though there were problems here and there. This sem seems to pass by faster than the last one....Prac exam next week, 2 assignments, 2 reports + presentation and exams next month! the stress is really building up..
and and i cant get a ticket home =(

below are just some random pictures taken here...

The malay Singapore community in Brisbane (though there were a couple of malaysian frens who joined )

my family and him has always been there for me throughout all the difficult times i have here and im really thankful for their support.
I'll make it through no matter how tough it gets....

missing my love ones and frens soo much....
On a lighter note..
Happy 19th Birthday to my dearest bro!

far apart

2009-04-04T20:19:00.002+08:00

I just received this in my mail a few mins ago. Apparently they have this computer/device at marina barrage where u can take instant photo and send it at that point to anyone. So there my whole family with the cousin at Marina Barrage at this moment while 8hrs away, im stuck here at home reading journal article. How pathetic.

Im missing them all and my cheeky boy lots...

Holding u close to my heart

2008-10-19T22:36:00.007+08:00

From my tagboard which i just read today.

14 Oct 08, 20:48 l i y a n a*: ahhh. betol betol betol! nk tunggu nov, biler ader bnyk pic of me and you baru nk update ehk yanniii?

17 Oct 08, u noe who: pi dah... mcm paham je... no shame ah u.. puas hati gambar i kn yani? hehe

17 Oct 08, l i y a n a*: bluek. put your pic for what. nanti tros ppl dont visit her blog anymore.

put mine and hers and nurul's better lorr.

19 Oct 08 u noe who: haha ppl visit her blog... she dun even update lah tats y ppl tak visit... not becoz of my pic okays.. dun anyhow onli... self proclaimed girl hahah.

soo since u people want ur pics on my blog and it would ensure more ppl will come frequent it from now on so here it goes! =)

Im soo jealous of the dimples u both have.

I Love u people =)

time is running out!

2008-10-19T20:06:00.010+08:00

Kak Olin's 29th Birthday!

The surprise celebration was a success! and i was really glad that mine and kak rose planning worked out. Seriously it was all soo complicated and there was soo many drama's going behind the scenes but in the end we pulled it right off. We were actually doing it all right under her nose but she didnt even sense something was up!

Ouh wells, im glad she had a blasting birthday celebration today even though shes far away from the son and husband.

Credits to Pancake Manors for the delicious pancakes and for their help in the surprise. =)

*when it all seems soo far away

Eid Celebration In Brisbane

2008-10-01T21:27:00.028+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya!
It was a virtual raya for me this year. Woke up early in the morning to ask forgiveness from the parents through sykpe; the wonders of the virtual world. it was an emotional one for me though.

anyways we went to Munro park dressed in baju kurung for the hari raya prayer and there was a rather large crowd there. The whole place just gives me a sense of serenity.
After prayers, we went to a few frens open house and although the raya celebration here wasn't as grand but we do go visiting and eat rendang, lontong and ayam masak merah so i guess it wasnt too bad.

Open house at Unit 71/ The manors

We had an open house over at our house for the singaporean and some of the malaysian frens and yesh i do help in most of the cooking. We had rendang, serunding, ayam masak merah, lodeh, lontong, gado-gado and of course the raya cookies that we make. It was nice to have soo many ppl around the house and i especially love the camwhoring moments with the gurls.

yoga poses

Raya Celebration at Masjid Woolonggaba

The food was good, the people were nice and we even had a hitch ride home and made new frens=) It was great to be surrounded with people who was wearing the malay traditional costumes. It just makes me feel a sense of home and belonging.

*when thoughts of the love ones filled my mind

back to the basics

2008-08-03T18:31:00.007+08:00

Its the start of the 3rd week of school and i have already feel the stress building up. Theres lectures to attend, assignments that i have to start doing, notes to do, textbooks to read up and just looking at the amount of textbook i have to finish going through for the next 3 1/2 months is enough to freak me out.

When i came for my first week of classes, i felt so out of place as everyone seems to know each other. it was if i was the odd one out and having 90% of caucassians as ur classmates just makes u feel weird. Monday's timetable is the most taxing in the sense that i have psychology lectures and tutorials till 9pm. But i have my tuesdays and fridays to look forward to as i dun have any classes on those days. Hot chocolate from Darin's cafe before going for morning lecture certainly helps start my day.

Hot chocolate

Generally the classmates are really nice people -very friendly and easy to talk to and im thankful to have eliza around for classes.

Im back to being the nerdy schoolgurl.

When reality hits you

2008-07-31T01:16:00.003+08:00

[ l i y a n a* ] blop blop blop blop says:
i tell you an analogy of a duck

[ l i y a n a* ] blop blop blop blop says:
we should all be ducks because..

[ l i y a n a* ] blop blop blop blop says:
ducks appear calm on the surface of the water kan

[ l i y a n a* ] blop blop blop blop says:
but actually, it is paddling like mad under the water.

[ l i y a n a* ] blop blop blop blop says:
so the lesson learnt here is, no matter how you are struggling, show a brave and nice front

My sentiments exactly. Is It time to hide and not show it all?

bring it on

2008-07-20T21:38:00.017+08:00

Mt Coot-tha

They say Everday's an adventure. I guess thats really true this days. It was really a true test of endurance as we keep ending up travelling on foot for long distances. First up it was Mt Cootha.

We missed the bus which goes there and the next one will only arrived in an hours time so we decided to walk there . it was written in the net that the bus ride would only take 3mins. We thought that it couldnt be that bad but we were wrong. We ended up walking for an hour; up and down steep slopes and after one hour our hopes just crushed when we saw this huge sign "Mount Coo-tha-> 12km" written on it. Climbing uphill for the next 12km is totally impossible!

So instead with huge disappointment, We decided to go to the Botanic Garden's nearby . But luckily for us there was a shuttle bus to Mount Coo-tha from the Botanics garden so we manage to fulfill our wish of goin there.

The view is really worth all those sweat we shed and the streneous long walk there. It was beautiful. We could see the view of the whole of Brisbane City from up there. After Mount Coo-tha we went to the Botanic Garden's too. Some of the collection of trees and flowers they have there is soo unique. i Love the Japanese Garden the most.. =)

The next walking trip we had was when we were on the way to Inala Village to buy some fresh seafood. We dropped down at the wrong bus stop this time and since we thought the village was just nearby, we decided to make our way there by foot.

We had to walk up and down those steep slopes for 45mins. My feet was aching like hell by the time we reach the seafood house.

Moral of the story: Just wait for the bus no matter how long it takes. lols!

*if only u were here

when loneliness creeps in

2008-07-14T15:57:00.020+08:00

There was soo many places that we went to, new things that we tried and i felt as it it was all a holiday and i will be going back to singapore soon. I guess i was still living in denial.

This 10 days seems to pass by soo slowly. I guess its just that im missing singapore and the people there soo much. It wasnt as bad when the parents was around. But when they left that week, i suddenly felt soo lost and suddenly everything just feels unbearable. i hate this feeling of loneliness.

On a lighter note, Brisbane is a beautiful City. Not as beautiful as perth though. The mode of transport; buses, trains or ferries. I love travelling by ferry the most coz

I just simply love watching the clouds from there. Its really beautiful. Whenever i look up at those beautiful creations, it just gives me a calming effect which i like.

I cant possibly type down every single day of my life here. They say a picture speaks a thousand words so lets just let the picture tell u people about my life here soo far. =)

South Bank

in front of Royal Exchange Hotel at Toowong

Bank of New South Wales

on board the ferry!

Taking the Train to Airport

In the train

On the way to Gold Coast, Surfer's Paradise

Billabong factory Outlet

Surfer's Paradise

Spot the Similarities

Mister Ellyphant love

The long list of shopping we did for our new house which we will be staying in for the next coming year! Ive never shopped soo much before!

The Favourite Ferry

Gathering for the Malay Association Students from UQ

mind-blowing!

University of Queensland!

Banana wif hazelnut chocolate. Super nice and special

*The need for sth familiar

the time is soon to come

2008-06-24T10:57:00.003+08:00

To those who are still unaware,

I will be flying off to Uni Queensland in slightly more than a weeks time; 4th of July.
sms me more for my flight details if u guys wana sent me off.

I'm trying to squeeze my time for as many people as i can . The schedules really packed and im sorry if i have to reject any of you people =)

My luggages is all still in a mess and im not ready to say goodbye to everyone here yet but i noe its just a matter of days now before i have to.
Ive wanted this my whole life and when its nearing, im trying to put as much distance as i can from it.

On a lighter note,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 my DEAREST DAD!
I love u lots =)

*Will it all change once im gone?

of laughters and songs

2008-06-01T22:31:00.009+08:00

Elly Nadyne Koh

Isnt the little niece simply cute! Had a kenduri cukur rambut for her on sunday. I think shes really lucky coz she has greatgrandparents, grandparents and lots of uncles and aunties to pamper her. All the grandmothers lavishes her with golds from gold chains, bracelets, lockets etc.

It was just simply soo cool to have 4 different generations under the same roof. And wad makes it great was that there was like 6 different babies around until everybody was like soo confused about the identity of the babies. Me and the cuzzins were taking turns carrying each one. They are just simply cute.

I have always love family gatherings coz this is the best time for all of us to catch up with each other. I just feel soo blessed to have all of them.

But its sad that I wouldnt have much opportunity left to attend such gatherings soon. Ouh wells.

Us with Elly

the cutting hair ceremony

Different babies under one roof.

The cute little cuzzin Hofiz

3 generations apart.

me and ika

The childhood playmates cum brothers

1/5 of the whole family

pf photographs and memories

2008-06-01T22:30:00.010+08:00

17th/ 18th/ 19th May 08

The Trip to Melaka this time was great. I drove almost 3/4 of the way there and it was really cool to be able to drive at 120-130km/hr throughout.

Went to visit the great grandmother at her Kampung house and its sad to say that she did not recognise all of us anymore except for my dad.

This trip really brings back the memories of the childhood days with the cuzzins at the old Kampung. The times we run around chasing after the goats and chickens, the times we feed the animals there and the best one that i can never ever forget was the time me, bro, Fahmi & A. Raz played under the very heavy rain. That was the best and the most fun experience ever. We were running, singing and just splashing around enjoying ourself. How i wish i could do that again. i love my childhood like a lot.

Ouh wells this time didnt really get to shop much there coz of the lack of time and all. Nonetheless i enjoyed this short getaway.

just feast on the pics below aite

*playing in the rain anyone?

unspoken thoughts

2008-05-23T13:38:00.004+08:00

Bumped into two primary school mates and and its sad to say that i have completely forgotten their names! and knowing how oblivious i normally am, they were the ones who saw, recognised and remembered me.
Apparently the memories failing me and that is not a good sign. =(

Although i usually just speak out my thoughts all the time but i do have moments when i just cant express it out. Perhaps i still do have my introverted side after all.
Is certain things just better left off unsaid? Im not sure of that myself. *Shrugs

I do not see you often with my eyes,

But often you are with me in my heart.

We rarely speak, but there are deeper ties

That keep us close while we must be apart.

* you have become a habit of mine

when everything around u seems bleak

2008-05-13T23:03:00.003+08:00

Its freaking me out!
It keeps on replaying in my mind and i just dun wish to imagine how it really would be like.
I simply refuse too.

* 5 down..lots more to go

2008-04-21T00:49:00.001+08:00

I like the words on this t-shirt alot! Its soooo ME. haha

Thank you for all the surprises =)

People close to my heart

2008-04-20T23:35:00.007+08:00

Was so happy to receive a frenster msg from Alice. Im missing this super nice girl lots too! Left a few more months for her to complete her degree in Auzi and we haven evern started ours yet. =(

I still owe her 9998 hugs and kisses and i dunnoe if that can be fulfilled.

And im missing Anna lots too! haven received a letter nor an e-mail from her for the past month. She must be very busy with her community work in US. There is so many things that i wana tell her and wants her opinions on. =(

And lastly im missing my dars lots! Although we are still here in this small country but we are just too busy to meet up. I really need a dose of my Princessy's please!

Im not liking it one bit

2008-04-08T23:46:00.003+08:00

The nearer it comes

The further im running away

But sooner or later i have to embrace it

The bond that never breaks

2008-04-06T17:08:00.010+08:00

Monday 31/3/08

Headed to Changi chalet after work. I was being soo panicky in the bus coz i didnt know where to alight since it was the first time there by bus. Moreover it was dark all around and the places the bus passes was rather deserted. Luckily he was around.

Reach the place at 8pm. my 2 darls greeted me at the bus stop. i felt soo good and such a relief upon seeing them. Met all the rest of my favourite boys and girls from W36k.

Barbecue+ friends + Laughter + Gossips + Camwhore practically sums up the whole time i had there. The only spoilt sport was the cat who keeps loitering around us and making us shriek esp liy.

I really really enjoyed my time with them although it was a short 2 hours or so.

A few more months and the boys will be off to NS while the girls will continue studies.

Soo many changes going on and im not liking it one bit =(

STRIPEY 5

MY FAVOURITE BOYS AND GIRLS OF ALL TIME

purely coincidence

2008-03-29T23:34:00.006+08:00

GRADUATION NITE

Overall i felt that the graduation nite was rather a disappointment. I was looking forward to sth better. Only the fact that i get to meet and take pics with people i know and like makes the party somewhat bearable..

It was more of a concert kind of theme i guess. We didnt have a real seat like other prom nite. Everyone was just crowded around the stage/runway. The host for the day was jean danker and she was real good and pretty.

I didnt really agree with some of the choices of nomination for the best dressed though. I felt some of them wasnt even dressed according to the retro theme.. oouh wells.

Anyways the performances by the fellow friends was nice though and the lucky draw segment combine with the deal and no deal game was interesting. Just feast on the pics alrites.=)

2008-03-29T23:33:00.012+08:00

Sentosa Family trip
21/03/08

We had our first try at taking the Luge over at Sentosa. And i thought it was rather fun. I dun agree with those people who said it was boring..Although it was a short trip but it was certainly very fulfilling. We managed to explore a lot of places.

Actually it has been a few years since we actually stepped on Sentosa as a family. Being there this time reminded me of all those times and it brings a smile to my face.

I can never imagine a day without them by my side.

*simply magic

2008-03-20T22:51:00.008+08:00

Dad woke up at 6.30am ytd just to accompany me on my train ride all the way to the subordinate court for a job interview although he still has to work later on in the day. i insisted on taking the train coz i wanted to know how to get there if ever i get the job. *i was really touched that he accompanied me coz i didnt expect it. in some ways i still feel somewhat pampered.haha. i mean how many dad's will wake up early and take the crowded train just to accompany his 20 year old daughter for a job interview? haha

Anyways met nana's fren yani who was also there for an interview and i realise we were both competing for the same job. the boss who interviewed me was very nice. she told me she had difficulty choosing one of us coz we happen to be from the same poly with the same diploma in Biomed, almost the same amount of experience and we are both yani's. hahaha

Met the first friend there. We were talking a lot to each other. He just came out from army and will be starting uni in july. he got a place in NTU and will be taking a degree in bioscience. How cool. we talked so much but when i leave the office i realise i didnt know his name! The agency called me 15mins later and told me i got the job. i was excited yet nervous coz the court seems like such an important and cool place to be working in.

And today today was one of the coolest day ever! i was introduced to the people in the office. All of them are super friendly people especially of course the friend i met the previous day. Found out his name was Jay and we shared the same table in the office. The best part is we were talking all the way as if we've known each other for ages. haha. nicee =)
We had to analyse all the case files regarding shop theft. The cases varies and i find all of them very interesting.

Went lunch with all the new friends jay, wei ting and dixie. Wei ting is from National Jc, Jay is from Temasek JC while Dixie is from Tampiness JC and all will be entering uni this july. very outgoing bunch of people. i really like them a lot. Dixie and Wei ting will be quiting in April so me and jay had to take over their 'job'. We went to shing siong and bought lots of tidbits for the office. Aparently everyone always have snacks in between work.

After lunch, wei ting and dixie brought me and jay to the Family court to show us how to conduct surveys etc. there was so many different sections and the case varies from divorce cases, to family violence etc etc. explored the whole family court and tried asking people around to help us with our surverys too. so far not too bad although i must say the atmosphere there was really very tense.

We the headed back to the sub court. dixie and weiting brought us all around. I was told that court number 1 is the biggest and the DPP is the judge there. manage to take a peek at the other courts which is smaller in size. I plan to enter one of the court rooms, sit down and listen to one of the hearings one of this days. That will be quite an experience im sure.
ouh and theres a childcare nursery in court where parents can just dump their kids when they attend court hearings! super cute room and of course there was so many other cool rooms that we explored. it was really exciting!

The first day at work was really great and im really really looking forward to Monday! =)

2008-03-03T00:14:00.004+08:00

Our plans are always changing and they can be rather unexpected somtimes.

Was talking to vid on msn just now and she was telling me that her grandmother has given approval for her to work in auzi after graduating from monash at the end of the year.

and to think that i was talking to her abt me studying and living there since sec school and she beat me to that. she's in love wif auzi now! and shes applying for PR and might even stay there permanently. How nice! i still cant believe she will be really working and living there. just a few years before it wasnt even in one of her options!

As for me my plans for the future are still vague coz im considering a lot of things at the same time. i shall just go with the flow for now and hopefully something unexpectedly nice will come out of it. =)

IM MISSING VID LOTS!

Never says never

2008-03-02T23:43:00.005+08:00

The Leap Year

i have never really bothered much about feb 29th for any of the past years but this year im glad i spent it with this 2 darls of mine. it makes the day more special. its the company that matters; after all it comes after 4 years ryte. haha..

We went to vivo and we spent our time talking, camwhoring and watching 'the leap years'. The movie was nice! We liked it a lot. So many lessons to learn from it =)
The future ahead is full of uncertainties but i would like to spent our next coming leap year together with you people again. hopefully the bond that we share now will still be as strong 4 years down the road.

pics will be put up as soon as i got it from liy

a new experience

2008-03-02T23:09:00.006+08:00

i have always dislike teaching but after it for this past week, i have to say it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be.
On the first day of my relief teaching i had to teach a pri 3 class. They were such adorable, entusiastic and noisy bunch of kids. When i ask a question almost everyone will be raising their hands to answer and when i asked for help all of them will come rushing to me to help me. their innocent questions and comments makes me smile. i really liked teaching them.

Teaching the upper primary is a bore through. They are nothing like the pri 3's. they look somehow "dead". lols.

ouh wells i dun really hate teaching as much now but i dun think i will want it to be a career.

*a pic of me in ur wallet.

*all those memories makes me feel all warm inside

2008-02-25T22:12:00.006+08:00

was chatting with big zul last nite at 2am when he started commenting on how i look or how i was 2-3 years ago compared to now. This is just 1/8 of what he said;

[i][c=46]<< ::::ZuLazMiE:::: >>[/c][/i] "All I Need Is Faith.."
last time oso u sad now happy
HAHAHA

★ I want to sing with you, dance with you, be with you forever ★
ouh my gawd! Really? hahahahahahaha

[i][c=46]<< ::::ZuLazMiE:::: >>[/c][/i] "All I Need Is Faith.." but how come u look like very pretty seh nowadays maybe fashion sense oso
last time ur shorts forever got lots of tali pants i mean

and to prove his point he did a before and after pic of me!

he send me the sa sharepoint link and we started looking at all the pics of us. we were both laughing at----->ME!! HaHa
Here goes some of the pics i found...

This is the before and after picture of us! ouh and he said i was flirting wif him in this pic coz he appears to be sitting down and doing work. pfft!Big ZuL i still believe ure the one flirting with me okays *bleuk

ouh and i have only one last thing to say;

THANK YOU FOR BEING SUCH A FREN! =)

the season for goodbye's

2008-02-13T22:51:00.003+08:00

Its the season for goodbye and im hating it!

Went to the airport on monday to sent off alice, priya,banu,tsing whey and xiang ting to monash. There was lots of hugs,kisses and tears. Ouh wells one year is short and i still owe my dear alice 9998 hugs and kisses. As i look at the crowd of familiar faces around me, i realise that it is just a matter of time when we each will take turn leaving; the guys( chee han, yang, sam kwang, nijo, tern poh) leaving for NS, arrow and feng mei leaving for south auzi next week, Ying pei and Carolyn leaving to auzi in July or perhaps me or one of my darls going overseas for studies. THis bunch of people have been really special to me; the nicest guys in this world and the best girlfrens anyone could have. Im sure no matter how far we go or how long it may be, the friendship we built and the times we spent together will always remain in our memories..

unspoken thoughts

2008-02-13T22:50:00.008+08:00

Abg Andi's Wedding.

The 3rd and final part to Abg Andi's wedding. Thank god everything went on smoothly. the food and decorations was really niceee....There was nothing much to do so i end up entertaining the guests most of the time..It was nice meeting a lot of my facis at the wedding and of course ash and her mum came too.. her mum was sooo sporting as to sing a mohabbatein song in from of the large crowd! ouh and a lot of my cuzzins and aunties sang even my mum though sis and putri break the record for singing the most songs throughout the day.haha...... and i got sabo-ed by fahmi and aza to sing wif his frenlah okays..it was sooooo embarassing. ouh wells. *shrugs

all those beautiful memories

2008-02-01T15:18:00.000+08:00

i didnt feel it ytd when i was camwhoring for the last time with the princessys in school, i didnt feel it today when i was on my way to school but i felt it just now when rey was giving his 'graducation speech' for me and nesa. Suddenly all the memories of my years in RP flash through my mind and an overwhelming feeling of sadness just surrounds me. I guess it was more nostalgic coz I first met rey and nesa on the first day of school and today we end our poly life by meeeting again and saying our heartfelt love for each other.

Today marks the end of my poly days. This 3 years has been full of memories and i cherish every single one of it.

My year 1 sem 1 class was one of the best class that i was in. i was a bit apprehensive and afraid when i enter my first class in poly but this people made me feel a sense of belonging and suddenly poly seems all so exciting to me although i hated the idea of PBL then.The class was very united and was always full of laughters, craps and crazy moments and i love almost all my classmates from this class from the 4ever loud uncle Bennett, my cute bro Rey, sis nesa, xue shuang, rey's gay buddy JLO , Roy, kian, andrew, phyu phyu, fang ting, tyan and so many others. They are all such wonderful and cool people. i used to really look forward to communication class coz we get to act out rey's hilariously commercial ideas. im really glad to have met rey and nesa as they never fails to cheer me up and make me smile all the time till now.

my Year 1 sem 2 wasnt as memorable as the class was decided into their own small 'groups'. but im glad to have met my princessy eliza here in this class. Sam, pram, mike, yoyo, wen hao and shallini was great people to hang out around with.

I guess other than my year 1 sem 1 class, i really really really really LOVE my this bunch of year 2 classmates a LOT! i should say we were all very very united. The class is forever noisy as everyone was sooo talkative. haha. it was a bit scary at first though as this was the ipbms class and all the people inside was super smart and super enthu that i was kinda intimidated by them. this is where i met my darls ;nuwul and liyana and it was a blessing to have each other especially since it happens to be the time when we each were having our low periods.

Year 2 sem 2; i guess i always get ununited class every second sem. i have lots of camwhoring moments with princessy seatea and nuwul though and it was fun.

Year 3 sem 1; almost more than half of the people here was from my year 2 sem 1 class so i was comfortable round them and could mix around easily. However i felt a tremendous amount of stress for they are very very smart people but pls dun mistake them for nerds. most of them as soo far from it especially our dear carolyn and banu, the 2 parrots in class.... haha.

for the last semester in RP i was reunited with my dear eliza. i detest the clan in class though. they are such irritants. gossip with ying pei and eliza in class is always a must!

and of course SA and even chiron club has brought quite a number of beautiful memories for me also.
I have certainly learn and grown alot this past 3 years.

Thank you all for all the wonderful memories and for making a difference in my life!

*i felt a tug at my heart when i was walking away from you. this feeling feels so foreign and im still trying to comprehend wad it means.

the beginning of an ending

2008-01-26T22:37:00.000+08:00

i havent been in a mood for blogging. That should explain the lack of updates.

so im gona update now or my blog might just be extinct soon.

Wednesday 16th Jan

Went out wif my favourite girls to east coast park for skating. yes something we have been wanting to do but never got the opportunity too. nuwuls 3 classic fall was sooo cute and hilarious. liyana tried skating with my skates and surprisingly she did not fall down even once but she did on her bike.haha and as usual we had so much fun and shared so much laughter. I especially liked the time when liy cycled while me and nuwul hold on one side of liys bike. we were wheezing past everything fast rather than skating...coolness.

Saturday 19th January

went out with the family and had my favourite seafoods at Chai Chee Seafood Restaurant. There was lots of yummy dishes and the little sister has her first experience of eating a crab! i was laughing so badly watching her strunggle with the pincers. cuteness.

we then went to airport terminal 3 to take a look at the place. the whole place was flooded with people most probably due to the fact that it was still new and everyone wants to explore the place. For those people looking for good food, theres are lots of choices available there.

Wednesday 23rd Jan

me and nurul went down to tanjong pagar and got to meet ferdinand..he was soo nice. he talked to us for four hours withour even having his lunch. imagine FOUR HOURS! haha. we asked him practically about everything in the booklet.

we got irritated and confused with the lifts in singapore. they work in such weird ways. first lift service to level 2-4 & 15-19. second lift service to level 1-2 & 8-12. third lift service to level 2,3 & 5-8 imagine us trying to pick the right lift to get to the 4th floor; there were 7 choices to make. we ended up waiting for the WRONG lift for approx two minutes

The same thing happened when we were at pacific plaza. we made the same mistake again. talking about being selenger. we end up laughing at ourselves.

Friday 25th Jan

there was nothing much to do for neurobio so me and ying pei ended up gossiping for almost two hours in class! so now practically we knew all about each others story *winks. then i met up with nesa and rey. that bro of mine looks sooo girlish with his long hair instead of his usual cute self. i told him i dun like it...but i have to say i like the muscles on his arms. me and nesa were poking on it. haha and as always i enjoy being in their company. =)

when ure all i think of

2008-01-13T22:54:00.000+08:00

FYP's OVER!

this time the presentation was way better than the last. i guess in a way we were more confident and able to express ourselves more. It was surprising when alvin teo said we were very good and gave us the thumb up. hes the last person anyone would ever expect a compliment from after all he has this aura which intimidates people. ouh wells lets just hope i get good grades for this. prays

three more tests and its all over! yayness

and today i went suntec and got myself an inline skates! ive been wanting to get one since my previous one spoilt. me, bro and sis was trying it out under the block(since it was raining) ; we keep skating up and down the slopes and all around to the other blocks too ..it was fun =)

we shall skate together on wed okays nuwul=)

Somebody to lean on

2008-01-10T13:22:00.000+08:00

Schools been a drag as usual. Been busy this week with fyp as poster presentation is on this Sat. only the presence of the people around me makes school soo much better. although i cant wait to finish all the modules now but truthfully i don't really want it to end as i still have not made up my mind on the path to take after graduation.

and today went to nuruls and liys class. their faci was sitting behind me. i didnt really notice at first. i even commented he looks selenger. hahaha.. after seeing him a few times i told them that he looks familiar then he was like commenting are you guys talking about me?

Me: i just told them that you look familiar. mayb u taught me in year 1

Faci: Yes i did. turn around. i want to see your complexion.

(me turning around and facing him)

Faci: your complexion is good now.

i was speechless. wad a thing to comment! but i have to say that i have pimples on both my cheeks in year 1; the ugly period in my life. ouh wells things have changed since *winks

after school me and nurul was suppose to be studying for ut but instead we got distracted and was laughing our heads off at an "interesting" blog that we were reading.

me, nurul and liyana went out last Saturday and we got for ourselves a friendship ring from montip. its really nice and i love it soo much! i wear it on my finger every single day although personally i have never like to wear ring much. we cam whored a lot too. we first met at bugis then proceeded to compass point to find our rings. wanted to go punggol park to hang out but in the end there was heavy rain and so we settled for the sitting area under the block. spending times with this girls really brings joy and lots of laughter to me no matter which place we choose to hang out at.

*something to ponder upon

holiday

2008-01-10T13:21:00.001+08:00

ouh wells the past holiday hasnt been much of a holiday. been staying at home and in bed mostly. wad a time to fall sick but i shall not complain much after all im getting my well deserved rest aint i. tsk

i enjoyed my Holiday in KL tremendously though i started being sick on the 2nd day there.

21st december

Left home at 530 am and make our way to johor. reached larkin at 7 and had our breakfast there, the best part; there was 3 cats running ard. i was sitting beside fahmi with both legs crossed on the chair and whenever a cat passed near, my reflex reaction was to hold onto him. soo unflattering. luckily i dun have long fingenails or his arms will be full of scratch marks from me. tsk. we took our bus at 830am and reach KL at 1pm. me bro and shahir was blowing gums during the bus journey trying to outwin each other in blowing the biggest. haha

we checked in to swiss inn hotel and went down to shop and look around at chinatown then started getting ready and dress for the wedding dinner at corus hotel.

This is the first time i attended a chinese style wedding dinner and it was really an eye opener for me. our table that was intended to have 10 ppl only had 6 as abg hadi and family couldnt make it, the food was a 9 course dinner comprising of shark fins soup, crispy chicken with mango, tiger prawns etc etc. By the 5th course all of us were soo full and we had bloated tummy. Moreover it was only fahmi, shahir and my bro who was eating most of it since there were much more a great eater than i am. there was the usual cutting of wedding cake and of course the pouring of the grape juice (supposedly wine in chinese weddings) in the wine glass by the newlyweds.

22nd December

Woke up early in the morning and had breakfast at the hotels restaurant. the food was not as good and as much as the ones at times square. i liked the samosa a lot though. we then proceeded to pusat seni. There was a lot of nice craftwork. bought a lot of nice stuffs.

we had lunch and continue shopping at chinatown area. i bought a wallet, bag and belts. bump into kakak mas and continue shopping together. kakak mas bought her coconut drink and i had some. tats when i felt slight headache and ate panadol and i tell u the combination of this 2 causes me to have a throbbing headache that i didnt even have the energy to walk much. end up resting in bed. Even though i was still having bad headache at nite, i still followed when we all went to masjid india area. i bought only one bag there. couldnt shop much as i almost fainted. quickly rush back to the hotel to rest.

23rd december

We all went to Times Square shopping centre. fahmi, shahir and mira played at the indoor amusement park. i really wanted to enter and play but i was still having the headache and i couldnt possible take all those daring rides like the roller coaster and all so decided not to. just went around shopping while waiting for them to finish. ate lunch and proceeded to sungei wang. bought a lot of shirts there. went back to the hotel coz we were all soo tired and i felt weak. at night just went around chinatown again to shop. me and sis got a 2 dresses. i like it a lot!

24th December

Happy birthday to my darling sister! she was rather unhappy that we will be spending her birthday in KL. moreover we will be leaving for singapore that day so couldnt really celebrate. wanted to get a cake but there no nice ones around. just went to the shopping centre nearby to do some last minute shopping. left hotel at 1pm and proceeded to pudu. Had lunch and waited for our bus to arrive. Reach singapore at 8pm.
overall alhtough i was sick most of the time in this trip but i still enjoy it nonetheless. Sis and bro shop the most! and im soo jealous. haha. ouh wells there will be a next time.

25th December

Went out to the airport for Swensens for a small post celebration for sis birthday. short yet sweet. we explored teminal 3. its very spacious and nice. mak long and family joined. they got her a handphone.

28th December

Was sick so decided not to follow Mum, bro and sis went town to buy abg.razlans pressie but after having my afternoon nap and getting a call from kak mas saying shes meeting mum at town, i went down and met them there. kak mas bought me a top from mango. we then drove down to bukit timah area to eat. Had fish and chips. went to island creamery to have ice-cream afterwards. the ice-cream there all have local flavours like pulut hitam, horlicks, chendol, caramel etc. i love the horlicks ice-cream the most. its super nice!

29th December

Happy Birthday Abg Razlan!
went to east coast to celebrate abg razlan's birthday. my family, ang hadi and family with datuk and nenek grace the occasion. he treated all of us to seafood and lots of other food. he then treated all to bowling afterwards and boy was it soo noisy at the bowling alley especially with all our presence. We clapped and cheered soo loudly whenever any one of us managed to strike and surprisingly each of us strike a few times even me so imagine all those noise we make. it was fun!

i enjoyed every single day spent with the people i love =)

2008-01-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

Im going to update about my KL trip and some others as soon as i reformat my lappy and get to use my photoshop..

as for now im going to update about today. we were supposed to be doing out fyp poster but we ended up browsing through photos snapped in the past; bubbles at pasir ris, valentines day, open house 07, outing at esplanade etc.
We were laughing our heads off at our silly facial expressions and actions. and most of all it resolved against a particular topic. i swear we could be heard clearly by most in the library. i laughed soo much that i teared. hahaha
it was really wonderful just being able to do dat with them. it brings me soo much joy!

I love you people and always will=)

Welcome 2008!

2008-01-01T23:34:00.000+08:00

A brand new year!

2007 has been filled with Good as well as bad memories.
wonderful memories that i will always cherish; outings and dates with all my favourite peoples, friendship gained:stronger bonds, all those birthday surprises, open house in January, picnic and beach games with the cuzzins in february, valentines day at east coast in february, holiday in perth in june, kak mas wedding in July, completion of of the first fyp in july, sentosa outing with the princessy's in july, anna's departure to the US in july, fireworks fiesta with nuwul, liy and big zul in august, teachers day with the excos in september, meetup with the rs alumni in october, chalet in november, vidya's comeback in november, abg an's wedding in december both in singapore and KL
theres still lots and lots of dates and outings throughout...too much for me to list them down but i cherish every single one of it too.
Other sad memories are some broken frenships and my uncles departure from this world.

ouh wells im looking forward to creating more wonderfull memories to cherish this coming year and ive created a list of resolutions that i hoped to fulfill =)

* off with the old and in with the new

2007-12-20T01:13:00.000+08:00

Im done with my fyp report. yayness! Ive not been blogging for very very long so i shall update on all those outdated events and pics.

Saturday 081207

Abg Andi and Cherry's nikah.
it was a small , short and sweet event with the presence of all the close family members.
The sanding will be done next year February and cherrys side will be doing it at a KL hotel.

after the event we went to kakak mas new house and i like it lots. its very spacious and nice and of course mine and baby's favourite spot in the house is of course the halls which is full of mirrors

Monday 101207

become tour guide for a day for my indon relatives. the parents have returned to indon first so left winda and kak ryan ( winda's sister in law) . Winda is a year older than me and shes engaged. haha ..i cant imagine myself getting engaged at the age of 20. scary...anyways Fetch putri from wdlands mrt. then we all went to bugis as they wanted to do shopping there. we then proceeded to vivocity. They bought 3 big bags full of chocolates from the candy empire. Kak Mas and A.dhahrul joined us there. took pics at the water area but most of the pics are in their cam and i dun have it yet. pfft.

Wednesday 121207

went to the Science centre with the sister to see the Mummy's exhibition and i swear its really cool. there was lots of gold mummy coffins. the exhibition is really interesting. its really worth the money and time..u guys should really go. i enjoyed my whole time there.

an interesting finding at science centre. Products made from the different pills and medicinal tablets.

pharmaceutical art. the cowboy hat is made from CNS pills, the shirt is made from diebetes tablets, the bag is made from antibiotics tablets and the belt is made from vitamins pills.

then met mum and i went for a facial spa while mum had her spa message. Whenever i go for spa treats i feel soo pampered.haha

im off to KL tmr morn with the cuzzins to attend abg an and cherrys wedding dinner. Looking forward to the short vacation. Lets see wad this vacation has in store for me =)

*im skeptical about mending the distance between us. we shall see how it goes coz ure more like a stranger now.

2007-12-01T22:33:00.000+08:00

Been going out and doing lots of shopping with the mum and sis this week. The best part is ; mum pays for all our shoppings =)

and my new one month old charger melted. grr..and i cant use my laptop now...soo irritating. Moreover its the ut season and all. tsk.. I was soo bored in class yesterday without a lappy. resort to staring at ppl and you thanks for calling and entertaining me =)

I was happily thinking that this coming week is gonna be the last week of school but i was disheartened when eliza and yp told me that theres still 2 more weeks of school. i want my sch hols pls!

Im missing missing missing missing missing my brother lots. The house seems too quiet without him around..one more week before he's back!

I LoVe Him!

it comes and goes

2007-11-26T00:17:00.000+08:00

She was back and shes flown off again but at least this time there is lots more memories to stay with me till the next time she comes back again.

21st Nov 07
met up wif vidya after 2 years for dinner at causeway with nana too. we greeted each other wif a hug and i didnt feel like letting her go. lots of talking, updating of each other lives, camwhoring. It felt like back then in sec school.

23th Nov 07
Went out wif vidya again for her last day of shopping in Singapore. Had to go Sim Lim to fix her laptop first coz she put in my memory card in her laptop and end up she couldnt start her lappy.

she got for herself quite a number of things at simlim itself. haha. tsk. then we proceeded to Far East. she got for herself a bag and a earring. We wanted to go taka to shop some more but our legs were really aching esp mine coz of my white high heel shoes and moreover each of us had at least 2 big plastic bags to hold so we went to Causeway point instead.

Vid pierce her ears. she wanted 2 coz she told me it was not painful. in the end after the 1st pierce she couldnt stand the pain and i was just standing there laughing at her. we took neoprints and she got for her bro and dad shirts. we wanted to watch enchanted but it was soo late and we were dead tired so we proceeded home. i really had a great time talking to her about everything. it feels as if she never left before.

24th Nov 07

Went to vid's aunties house with nana to give her the pressies we got for her. i help her carry her luggage down and send her off in the taxi. We had our last hug and final goodbyes. she looks teary. i was feeling sad inside but i knew someday somehow we'll meet again and no matter how far the distance is, we will always remain close.

Went to the airport at 1am coz bro wanted to have supper before he leaves for india. was just lazing around eating and eating. There was soo much tears and hugs before he finally checked in at around 7am. He'll be there for 2 weeks with his other jc frens to build a sch and a hospital for the less fortunate people there. Someday i wana do this type of community work too. It seems fun and there is soo much to learn.

*im missing them already. Pouts

2007-11-20T13:35:00.000+08:00

Hearing that voice after soo long makes me feel ecstatic, jittery and excited

*hey you, lets meet up.

2007-11-13T23:26:00.000+08:00

One week of holiday just goes by and ends like that
Now is the start of another 3weeks of school.

been catching up on sleep, going out shopping, hanging out wif people and of course my chalet at downtown east on saturday and Sunday which i enjoyed very much with my family, nuwul, eliza, and my brother's frens.

Escape at Escape was fun with my nuwul, eliza, bro, sis and His frens
we screamed soo much in the haunted house till our throats were hoarse and we were practically perspiring away. the ghost was practically chasing us inside. scary!
we played almost every single thing there. We all had soo much fun. nuwul and mira even had their first try at the go-cart. and eliza she was hilarious *winks winks u know wad i mean

Barbecue, eat, eat and eat, arcade with the cuzzies, swimming. i Love all of it =)

2007-11-11T23:43:00.000+08:00

i saw this when i was out jogging the other day.

beautiful isnt it.

u see life the way u want to see it. Appreciate all the littlest things coz they matters. View things positively and it will turn out just fine.

2007-10-30T23:01:00.000+08:00

My beloved uncle left this world yesterday.

He was a great guy and i loved him.

All the memories of him will forever live in our hearts.

Semoga dia ditempatkan bersama orang2 yang beriman. Sesungguhnya allah lebih menyayangi dia.

2007-10-26T13:33:00.000+08:00

Nuwul! u make me goo CRAZYYYYY!

oooh lala....spending time with this girl this 2 days has made me soo crazy, hyper and everything else....I like!...I love you darl=)

I know i might be too blunt and direct sometimes that i end up hurting peoples feelings with my words...if u just ask me to sit by the side, observe and dun say anything, i dun think im capable of that....

*[you], stop with all those hintings, and [you] stop with an sms or call every 5mins, ive said and heard enuf you] thanks for all those words u said and lastly [you] i wana talk to u.

2007-10-25T09:56:00.000+08:00

Saturday 20th Oct 07

Rs Graduates 2004

The Excos organized an alumni for ex student and i met up wif NaNa, Chuan Lim, shu hui, insyirah, the malay guys and some other peeps. it was great being able to catch up with one another especially with chuan lim and shu hui.

Chuan lim ( the guy who sits behind me in class ). me , vid, him and siddiq always entertain each other a lot. he and siddiq used to sleep in class a lot and me and vid had to wake them up and "save" them. He's funny and entertaining =)

Shu hui and i can really talk quite a lot to each other although both of us used to be one of the quieter girls in class ( believe me ppl i used to be really quiet ).

and of course nana one of my closest girlfrens in sec sch.

Looking forward to more of such meetings! This time of course with our Ms Vidya around. i miss her lots. waiting for her to come back Singapore next month.

2007-10-18T22:16:00.000+08:00

First day of Raya

We all wore different colour clothes for this year..i LOVE my White baju kurung...first time since 362632years im wearing baju kurung for raya..normally it would be baju kebaya....haha

This years raya was not as great as the previous years. I guess because of the things that happen, the mood was just not there and there was really a lacking of my aunties/uncles/cuzzins at my grandparents house. How i miss the atmosphere of the previous years. ouh wells at least i have my cutesy lil cuzzins to make me smile.

2nd day of Raya

Went to all my aunties and uncles house from my mum side. a total of 8-10 houses. i think this year macam lekas gitu dah manage to visit most of the house of the important ppls...

I love the visiting, the cookies, the food, the asking of forgiveness, the people and of course the duit raya too =) ryka was singing for me the high school musical song...super cute!

*the delete button

2007-10-12T13:53:00.000+08:00

Im Currently in LOVE with my hands....

all thanks to ASH..yay!

my hands look soo pretty now...she did for me, sal, banu and carolyn in 1/2 hr....shes really really Good at it...

my pretty hands

Last but not leasti would like to wish all my fellow muslim friends

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Dan Batin

* Getting over it

2007-10-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

i feel the change in me and no i do not like it one bit...its scaring me!

Pardon me people if i have not been a good company to be around with.

*over time it becomes a habit, i dun want it to reach that stage.

2007-10-05T15:44:00.000+08:00

azzah says:
ni...
azzah says:
u ok tak?
azzah says:
muka macam sedih aje...

ouh my gawd I was soo shocked when I got that msn a few minutes ago. Really speechless. Shes the last person I though would actually realize and coming from her, its really shocking. And she actually manage to make me smile.. surprise surprise! And wats more surprising is that before she left for home, she came to my seat and hug me and told me not to be sad anymore. Im shocked, overwhelmed and everything else. All this time, I thought she wouldn’t really care about me/us. I guess I was wrong.
She still cares and im comforted by that thought.

2007-10-04T14:00:00.000+08:00

The atmosphere in the room was soo tense..one by one each of us started to break down.

Nothing else could be done except to remain strong for each other...=(

Ouh wells lets just move on to happier stuffs...Its depressing enough thinking about it..

Celebrated eliza's birthday on monday. i came back to sch to surprise her. It was really funny coz nuwul and eliza actually walked past the place where me and seatea was hiding.I panic when i saw them and me and seatea ended up running haywire before we hide behind a pole. but even though there was a glitch in the plan, overall it went rather well. we manage to really shock her..=) and liy, come back soon and be in the pictures!

And today i was laughing to myself in class when i receive nuruls sms. She had a dream last nite about me, eliza and her being a relief teacher in a school full of ghosts..The dream was just soo comical..

This days people have been having weird and funny dreams about me...shafiqs dream was funny too..soo fantasy-like. me? i was just plain tired to have any dreams.

*Thanks for all the care and concern..i appreciate it..

2007-09-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

This 2 weeks of sch was pretty alright, Cell cycle & oncology as well as Neurobiology was pretty interesting; interesting enough to sustain my interest in it..Structural bio was just plain boring, even the faci seems depressed a little but luckily i have eliza in my team so it was not that bad..

And in just a short period of 2 weeks, there was already some drama by some people in class. To think back about it i swear they are very weird. Like totally *shrugs. ouh wells im just really happy to go sch and have my dose of laughter and hyperness with my darls. School will be really boring without them around to make my day.

I though i was going to get my friday blues last week as my darls will not be around but thankfully i didnt. My last sem class had a surprise birthday for alice. Stack up donut as cakes, 24 kids hiding behind a vending machine, singing the birthday song at the top of our voices, hugs wif the birthday girl; They are such a great bunch of people and i really miss being in class with them.

Met up wif Rey today. Bro, i'll always be here to lend u a listening ear. i hope ull be strong enuf to get over this phase. i want to see the old Rey whose full of life and always makes me laugh =)

* 14 more weeks to go =)

2007-09-25T22:34:00.000+08:00

Set yourself free from anything that might hinder you in becoming the person you want to be. Free yourself from the uncertainties about your abilities or the worth of your dreams, from the fears that you may not be able to achieve them or that they won't be what you wanted.

Set yourself free from the past. The good things from yesterday are still yours in memory; the things you want to forget you will, for tomorrow is only a sunrise away. Free yourself from regret or guilt, and promise to live this day as fully as you can.

Set yourself free from the expectations of others, and never feel guilty or embarrassed if you do not live up to their standards. You are most important to yourself; live by what you feel is best and right for you. Others will come to respect your integrity and honesty.

Set yourself free to simply be yourself, and you will soar higher than you've ever dreamed.

* 191107 =)

2007-09-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

Nuwul came over to my house today for fyp...we managed to accomplish quite a number although there was just the two of us

...we then watch few cds of scary shows which nuwul wanted to watch..i was practically covering my face most of the time wif the pillow coz i was afraid to see those scary scenes...gosh..

....and yay! nuwul taught me to wear tudung her style...ive been wanting to learn coz ive been wearing it anyhow when i go out for terawih...

ps :i think i look weird in tudung ....

i still prefer me wif my hair..haha

*A good friend is like a computer I 'enter' ur life, 'save' u in my heart, 'format' ur problems, 'shift' u 2 opportunities & never 'delete' u from my memory!

2007-09-18T22:48:00.000+08:00

Even though i was really at my super lowest this morning, i end up smiling and laughing soo much by the time school ends...even those few pathethic people in class couldnt spoil my mood.....

the morning hug wif alice, heartfelt talk and hugs wif nurul and eliza, the meetup wif seatea, nurul's accidental bump (*winks), banu's story, carolyn's hug, the walk to causeway wif nurul which is full of craps and laughter...
ouh gosh i love this people lots...they could really make my mood change 360 degrees...=)
...soo many hilarious things happen today and im still smiling till now ....and its mostly thanks to nuwul =)
im bless to have u people in my life!

2007-09-17T20:15:00.000+08:00

Tears just keeps on flowing down my cheeks, there was nothing i could do to hold them

back.

*i shall be strong...

2007-09-11T22:38:00.000+08:00

Class Timetable for the Last Sem is out!

Knowing its the last sem feels me with dread coz in 4 months time i will be getting my diploma and choosing the next step to take...how i hate that but at the same time excited for wads coming as well...ouh wells..

Anyways here are the list of my classmates!

Day 2-Neurobiology

Day 3-Molecular and Cell Oncology

Day 4- Structural Biology

More of less the people for all the 3 days are the same just addition of people here and there for the different classes...and i noe most of them so i guess thats good...
Anyways, I can expect a few drama's just looking at some of the groups in class, if u noe wad i mean..
ouh and same class as azzah...i guess tats a sign yeah...we shall see how it goes...
One happy fact; i have eliza for 2 of the classes so that is enuf to cheer me up...
Best of all i dun have to worry about Monday blues coz mon and wed is my off days =)

*its time for some changes.

2007-09-06T22:40:00.000+08:00

Im currently suffering from the MISSING SYNDROME!...

Symtoms: heartache, wanting to meet the person badly, dreaming about him/her every single time, lethargic & ure dun even mind hearing their crappiness and nonsense

I missing soo many people! I need my cure like seriously...

PS : if ur eyelashes has been dropping alot lately just like nuwuls, u should noe who's missing u! !

*eliza dearie, my condolences to u and ur family..be strong and u noe we're always here for u =)

2007-09-03T21:28:00.000+08:00

Found this quiz link at nuwuls blog so decided to try it....

Nur Azzriyani --

[adjective]:

Sexually stunning

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

*jumps around happily...woohoo! mayb not the sexually part...just the stunning part will do...hahaha winks...

2007-08-31T23:09:00.000+08:00

I had a fulfilling week..YaY!

28th Aug

Our 1st anniversary of watching movie!

my darls and i watch Hairspray as well as play bowling...fun! too bad eliza could not make it to join us..but ouh wells we'll have another outing aiites..

Anyways me and nuwul found some interesting books at Times. i Love the one below the most

Coolness=)

29th and 30th Aug

This 2 days was spend working at the National IQC Convention. The job was easy. be the timekeeper for the presentations and announce the results for the competitions. It was soo typical 3rd presentation style. There was wide range of people from the different industries from Ministry of Defence to S'pore Turf Club, NUS, HDB and even private companies. Some of the projects proposed was rather inbteresting though most were boring especially its its about improving certain machines which i noe nuts about.

It was rather taxing for me the first day as the assesors as well as the groups was soo naggy and it end up dragging to more than 1 hour then the actual time. The male assesors was the one who keep shooting questions to the group non-stop which reminds me of alvin teo. Seeing them not able to answer the questions was like sadlah coz i noe how tat feels like...

The second day was soo much better. I kinda enjoy it. The groups pesenting was so much livelier and they stick closely to their time. Both of the assesors were very friendly and talked to me alot. There was this guy from the Ministry of Defence who specially bought a cup of coffee for me from the cafe downstairs..sweet ....

ouh and there was a weird guy too....but ouh i have a smart way of handling them *winks winks

I actually learnt quite a lot of useful tools that can be used to find a solution to different problems. Who noes it mite be useful for me in the future.

31st August

Happy Teachers day to all the teachers out there!

the SC excos (Jian Mei, Yu Wei, Kai Jun and Me) actually went back to Riverside this year...we went to visit Ms chithra...Most of the other teachers who taught us have already transferred to other schools....It was really great being able to catch up with one another...Jian Mei & Yu Wei still looks the same. Kai jun lost tons of weight...but despite not meeting for very long, we still can talk and feel comfortable with one another...i miss those times we organize all the different events in school together....ouh wells...This peeps has really been there for me a lot in sec sch and i treasure them lots =)

Just take a look at all the pics we took =)

*dates dates and more dates

2007-08-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

Was woken up my lil sis at 4am in the morn...there was apparently fire at the carpark near my house...Dad and bro has already rushed down....
The fire was pretty bad...and when i went down, found out that not only one by 3 carparks near my house area has been set fire too....almost 24 motobikes was seriously burnt..luckily dad parked his motorbike at the 2nd storey so his was safed...

the smoke was really thick and there was a lot of people crowding around the area to look while the fire engine and policeman do their work...i was coughing badly after inhaling all those smoke...gosh...

Its scary but my area has become like some crime target area... first it was the break ins...then the molestation cases and now fire...wats next...

2007-08-21T23:32:00.000+08:00

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I had soo much fun watching fireworks at Marina. Big zul came along to join us and i cant believe that he is as random as nuwul.haha...such an entertainer...I swear we were practically laughing all the way there wad wif all our crappiness...=)
The fireworks was really beautiful and for the first time ever i actually saw a heart shape firework! i LYKE!

* telepathy or telepathetic? Hahaha

2007-08-15T22:24:00.000+08:00

I had my first attempt at cooking without any supervision...cooked 3 dishes all by myself..
And it did not turn out that bad...YaY!

Thanks nana for the recipe .

* it saddens my heart...but then again why do i need to care abt it..

2007-08-14T12:55:00.000+08:00

Making people happy makes me happy too! and YaY for yesterday...
Went to one of my fav hangout......
The things we made liyana do--> from being blindfolded to climbing up hill in that state to confession and of course the tearing of those paper *wink wink

No matter how tough things may get we'll brave it together =)

2007-08-14T12:00:00.000+08:00

Two traveling angels stopped to spend the night in the home of a wealthy family. The family was rude and refused to let the angels stay in the mansion's guest room.Instead the angels were given a small space in the cold basement.As they made their bed on the hard floor, the older angel saw a hole in the wall and repaired it.When the younger angel asked why, the older angel replied, "Things aren't always what they seem."

The next night the pair came to rest at the house of a very poor, but very hospitable farmer and his wife.After sharing what little food they had the couple let the angels sleep in their bed where they could have a good night's rest.When the sun came up the next morning the angels found the farmer and his wife in tears.Their only cow, whose milk had been their sole income, lay dead in the field.

The younger angel was infuriated and asked the older angel how could you have let this happen? The first man had everything, yet you helped him, she accused.The second family had little but was willing to share everything, and you let the cow die."Things aren't always what they seem," the older angel replied."When we stayed in the basement of the mansion, I noticed there was gold stored in that hole in the wall. Since the owner was so obsessed with greed and unwilling to share his good fortune, I sealed the wall so he wouldn't find it.""Then last night as we slept in the farmers bed, the angel of death came for his wife. I gave him the cow instead. Things aren't always what they seem."

Sometimes that is exactly what happens when things don't turn out the way they should.If you have faith, you just need to trust that every outcome is always to your advantage. You might not know it until some time later...

2007-08-12T23:31:00.000+08:00

It was such a chore to actually dragged myself out of bed early in the morning today to go jogging...i was really hesitating ... but im glad i did in the end coz if not i wouldnt have met Jian Mei over at the exercise stations...

Its been over 2 years since i really have a good talk with him...he used to be my bodyguard, sending me home when we stayed till late in school for preparation of events since we live just a few blocks from each other. I miss those days with him and yu wei....

There was just so much to talk to each other about..He's in army now with the MINDEF CMBP....He still looks the same though...haven change one bit even..he said ive changed though...ouh wells..We practically sat there talking for a few hours....it was nice..
and he has a secret mission for me...hahaha....i think im gona meet him frequently now....hehe

* meeting someone u haven met for very long can really be a bliss=)

2007-08-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

= N U W U L = this time, with assiduity. says:
i know
= N U W U L = this time, with assiduity. says:
but i dont have a saving account of a rich gorgeous and sexy lady.
i just have a saving account of a gorgeous and sexy lady
= N U W U L = this time, with assiduity. says:
:P
* A Taste Of Something New says:
puke
* A Taste Of Something New says:
excuse me wat did u say again....i got dc just now
= N U W U L = this time, with assiduity. says:
AHAHA
= N U W U L = this time, with assiduity. says:
i can put for you again jap eh i copy and paste.
* A Taste Of Something New says:
im going dc again in one min
= N U W U L = this time, with assiduity. says:
but i dont have a saving account of a rich gorgeous and sexy lady.
i just have a saving account of a gorgeous and sexy lady
= N U W U L = this time, with assiduity. says:
i can copy and paste again
= N U W U L = this time, with assiduity. says:
but i dont have a saving account of a rich gorgeous and sexy lady.
i just have a saving account of a gorgeous and sexy lady
= N U W U L = this time, with assiduity. says:
but i dont have a saving account of a rich gorgeous and sexy lady.
i just have a saving account of a gorgeous and sexy lady
but i dont have a saving account of a rich gorgeous and sexy lady.
i just have a saving account of a gorgeous and sexy lady
but i dont have a saving account of a rich gorgeous and sexy lady.
i just have a saving account of a gorgeous and sexy lady
= N U W U L = this time, with assiduity. says:
:P
* A Taste Of Something New says:
ouh my Goodness........im going to paste it at my blog eh.......hahahaha somebodys skin tHicker than mine

* HaHa...and there i thought only i am capable of self praise but someone beats me to it yeah..hahaha

2007-07-28T21:42:00.000+08:00

Wedding of the year...20/07/2007 - 22/07/2007

Dr Mas Suhaila ( my cuzzin) & Dhahrulsalam Pepeco Bin Koh ( his name sounds a bit weird and tats because he has so many mix bloods in him)

Friday 20/07/2007

I like the date...cool huh...

We went early to help out wif the nikah preparations but apparently everything is already done up and there was nothing to do. the guys side came around 8pm and it was soo soo squeezy in the house....the tok kadi was apparently some actor in a movie( not really sure which...the aunties was the one who notices it)....

Saturday 21/07/2007

Tea reception at Conrad hotel

The ceremony started off with the arrival of the Couple accompanied by the kompangs followed by a display of silat.there was then a video montage of kakak mas and abg dhahrul. It was really sweet..to think they were in the same class in vJc....sometyms fate really work wonders...anways...I seriously love the food there....There were soo many varieties that i was soo spoilt for choices.....yummy....just feast on the pics for that day =)

Sunday 22/07/07

I feel that this day was the most fun of all. me and most of the girl cuzzins gave out the berkat for the guests. It was tiring but ouh wells a new experience. And i tell u the cuzzins and uncles are all soo spontaneous. We actually took turns singing in front of a large crowd. Me, ika and ayu sang tak akan melupakanmu by radja..Bro sang pencinta wanita alone...and there was soo many other songs that the uncles and cuzzins sang.. at the last part even abg dhahrul sang for kak mas. coolness..fun..coolness..

Im glad everything went off well as planned. I wish both of them Happiness always in the company of each other...=)

2007-07-24T23:22:00.000+08:00

Thursday 19th July

Another birthday surprise..this time from bro (Rey) and lil sis (nesa)... Although their surprise sisnt turn out the way they planned it, but ouh wells it was really sweet...and i couldnt help laughing thinking of rey standing by the side of the canteen staircase with the heart shape fan, the card and the 3 roses...so valentine-ish...haha...Thanks bro and sis....i appreciate the hard work that u all put in to create the stuffs u gave..=)

the gifts which they did for me =) isnt it so Valentine-ish

I hearts both of u=) Lets try to meet up often....

Birthday =)

2007-07-15T23:40:00.000+08:00

15th July

Happy Birthday 2 ME!

19 years

Another new chapter begins =)

the number 9 makes it look soo awful and makes me feel old...

But seriously for this years birthday i really have no idea what i want....everyones been asking me what i want for my birthday present but i cant come up with sth that i really really want...

As i look at the things and people around me...i realised that im really blessed...I have a wonderful family...great frens..all the things that i need...wat else can i ask for...im content with what i have..like totally..

Ive grown up a lot this past year...and i know for myself how ive changed....Good and Bad i suppose....

Nonetheless ill try working towards the centre right liYana...We should do it together....haha

Anyways Wishes has been coming in since 12am till the next day....Some are really sweet =)

....Thanks all for the birthday wishes be it by smsing, frenster msg or even at the tag board
and not forgetting thanks for the presents..I hearts u all...

For this year birthday i Had a simple but nice celebration with the family.. =)

my birthday card =)

Swensens =)

With family like this...who needs anything else...

2007-07-12T23:43:00.000+08:00

ARRRRRRR *Happy Mode!

Ouh my goodness...I still am in a hyper and happy mood right now.....had a surprise early birthday celebration for me and liyana from nuwul, eliza and seatea...it was really soo surprising and unexpected..

Im really really touched by wat u guys did...i seriously am..it was super duper sweet and i heart u all lots...

So here was the plan they had....

After ut, Me, nurul and liyana was doing fyp in the library. Eliza and seatea said they needed to meet their fren to pass something...they went rather long but i didnt really suspect anything.

...anyways We finished our fyp poster and sent it from printing. Nuwul was hungry and she wanted to get food and drink. so off we went to the canteen and to cafe esplanade...

....we were tired and sat down on the couch when suddenly eliza and seatea came carrying a box of cake and said Happy Birthday...it took me more than a minute to register it in coz i was so shocked...and they started singing for us a birthday song..at first i didnt even thought that the cake they were carrying was for me and liyana...i was lost for a while...and...i was even being teary coz its sth i really didnt expect......the surprise was great....The chocolate cake was delicious...thanks darls for everything...

We cam whored a lot sweet...=)

I heart my Darls.!

2007-07-10T23:12:00.000+08:00

Immune system has been going down for the past week....high fever, cough, sneeze...i guess it was just the sick season for me and nurul...but now we're much better...alhamdullilah..

Anyways been having the missing syndrome since yesterday...i dunnoe why ive been missing people i haven been catching up with for quite sometime...and im trying my best to meet up with this people....i dun want to miss anymore whatever time we can have just like wif me and anna...its really shocking news and im still trying to take everything in right now....

Anna....knew her got close to her since Pri 4...she was like the bestest fren in pri school..she understands me soo well perhaps due to the fact that our birthdays are exactly one week apart.... and throughout the years of being in different schools leading different lives, there lay a bond between us...a bond nothing could break...a bond called friendship...and even though we dun talk to each other everyday, we still catch up with one another often enough...shes always been there....and now shes going off to the US for 2 years.....to gain some life experiences for herself....

its gonna be hard and sad for me when she leaves..its hard imagining her not there like she always used to.......but im sure that at some point of time in life, we'll meet again and no matter how much time have passed i know that she will still be the girl i love...

Im gonna make the best out of whatever time we have....=))

*im in need of some hugs....

2007-07-03T13:29:00.000+08:00

Lets just go on to the much awaited entry on My Holiday in Perth, Australia..
8th -18June 2007
Wat can i say....its as best as the previous time i went there.....i enjoyed it a lot with my family..the weather...the beautiful beach...the breath-taking scenaries....The food(chocolates and tidbits)....the shopping..the super friendly people....the cute guys..everything.....and adding to my list of LOVES...my 4 auzi cuzzins..Fauzi, fairuz, Haris & Khairy....who are the best and the most adorable thing ever.....(Ps: My fav--> Fairuz)

Since we have taken Singapore airline, Qantas airlines and Malaysian airlines to Australia before tis time we decided to take Tiger airways...Its soo much cheaper and the thought of climbing up the stairs to board the airplane sounds interesting...

Reach Perth at 9.30pm on fri. Uncle Sam and Cik Eda picked us up from the airport. Proceeded to their house and thats where we will be staying for the next 10 days. Talked to the cuzzins till soo late at nite. Its weird how i feel soo much at home there..

Saturday 9th June
Went out early to rent a car...i purposely chose the bright yellow one...it looks cool and moreover i will driving it too..We then proceede to Fremantle Market. The fruits & Vege there are like super cheap...Bought lots of them and some others too. And later on in the day we all went to mundaring weir...got lost a while while finding the place but it was really all worth it...the view was beautiful...a hanging bridge in the middle of a large forest with a scenic view of a beautiful lake....and theres a trail from there to Albany....it stretches up to 1000km....its even bigger than Singapore!

Sunday 10th June
Went out early. Wanted to go to E.shed market but dad somehow forget how to get there and we end up reaching there in an hour while it was only supposed to be a 10mins ride. E.shed market is still the same from the last time i went there. Lots of nice cheaps stuffs. Went to Sorrento Quay after that. Sorrento Beach is just undescribeable as the sea is soooo breahtakingly beautiful. I could stay there like forever just looking at the view, looking at guys surfing, cam whore-ing, relaxing and just enjoying wats there..Pure bliss.....

Rushed down to watch fauzi's soccer match.Was standing at the side cheering him on and commenting on every single player there...coolness...We then went to Uncles Sam's fren open house...lots of malay from singapore there but it was kinda boring since most of them are like adults so the 6 of us decided to walk to the nearest shop..We thought it was rather near but in the end we walked for around half and hour and it was only then that fauzi realised the area we walked by actually belongs to the low income people who doesnt actually has a good reputation..scared us to hell...anyways later on we went to Harbour town..Shopping there was rather good. =)

Monday 11th June
Went to visit my house. Its pretty and soo much bigger than my house here..ouh wells hopefully ill stay there someday=)...Uncle Sam brought us to play Supa golf. My first attempt at playing golf...its super fun though there were some embarrasing moments while playing it. Bro's golf ball went into the pond..super funny and mine went into a pit hole.... Dad was really good at it though it was his first time playing it too..

After that went to Swan River. Fed and chase after the fat black swans... =)

Tuesday 12th June
Proceeded to UWA early in the morning to check out certain administration stuff....i like the campus..an option for next year...
Anyways we went to Kings Park...you can see the view of the whole perth city from Kings par..nicee... afterproceeded to Perth City..spend the whole day there.

Wednesday 13th June
Caversham Wildlife park....The difference between the Caversham Wildlife park and Singapore's zoo is that there u can feed almost all the animals.....I Love feeding the kangaroos the most...There was almost 60 kangaroos around and some was just like jumping around.... the baby kangaroos was the cutest...bro got chased by a goat and it was soo comical looking at him being soo scared
bro and sis also rode on the camel. I din want to after experiencing it 2 years ago..We manage to touch and took picture wif the koala...couldnt cuddle it since most of them were sleeping...Koala--> Hobby=sleeping

NEXT UP, We went to the fruit orchard near Swan valley...The grape vines are pretty...a pit that it was not the grape season and almost all the grapes has all dried up...there was lots of oranges though..

Thursday 14th June
Thursday was a pretty relaxing day for all of us. We went to Sorrento Quay and Galleria shopping Centre.. Galleria is apparently one of the biggest shopping Centre there. Took jumping pictures at Sorrento...Cuteness..

Friday 15th June
This day was booked solely to go to Fremantle and shop for sourvenirs....bought quite a number of stuffs..(hope u guys like the stuffs i get for u people) ....bro ended up buying lots of things for himself rather than for his frens...tsk...Fremantle is like an old town near the city...Lots of old designs of shophouses etc...Went to visit the Fremantle Prison --> apparently the oldest prison in Perth and is no longer in use...It was apparently said to be haunted too. we didnt manage to go in as the next tour starts very late..sad...perhaps the next time then...

Fremantle Prison

Saturday 16th June
Uncle Sam brought us all to Keju Island...we went fishing...the water was soo clear that u can practically see all the fishes swimming below...We were soo excited about it all and telling the fish to eat the bait...i hink we practically scare the fishes this way...Caught only like one fish and tat also by the nenek....Uncle Sam, Bro and Dad didnt get any...
After that, We just drove around perth...after all one more day left for the whole holiday...i dun even feel like coming home...The 6 of us had movie marathon all night as we didnt feel like sleeping...end up all of us slept for a while at the living room.

Sunday 17th June

We all went out for morning jog to Sorrento beach and...40mins jog/walking...but it was sooo soothing....each pass we pass someone they will always greet us...soo friendly and polite i like.....i hate last days....it always makes me feel sad thinking of leaving....
We played our last basketball together....we ride around the neighbourhood, and just spent time together...we even went to surprise Fairuz by coming to his soccer match to support him...

then had barbeque at fauzi's cuzzin house...real nice....

Saying goodbye is the hardest part....at the airport HArris and FAiruz was already crying and i was hugging them...fauzi was trying hard to stop his tears...my heart feels soo heavy leaving them but i noe i had too....

I LOVE MY TRIP LOTS!

2007-06-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

Im BACK!!
Perth was superly duperly Fun....i Enjoyed every minute there...I tried soo many new stuffs...i simply adore my cuzzins there and seriously speaking i told my dad that i didnt even feel like returning to SIngapore....heh
Took lots and lots of pictures....Will update the picture n and a post just specially for my trip real soon =)

This 2 days been busy catching up wif fyp ..and im down with ...fever, sore throat, blocked nose....must be because of the sudden change in weather..ouh wells

There was not a good news that greeted us here also...Found out that my uncle has advanced liver cancer. Went to visit him ytd....i feel sooo sad seeing him in that state...really saddening.....Lets all pray for him...hopefully a miracle will happen....=)

2007-06-08T14:30:00.000+08:00

Here i am at the terminal and waiting for my flight to fly off to Perth in an hours time..
Im Really excited..

Thanks gf for sending me off and thanks to those who sms me too..=)

I'm gonna miss u guys lotsa...

Australia...Here i come!...=)))

2007-06-07T23:03:00.000+08:00

HAd fun fun fun today wif all my DARLS!

Planned a small surprise birthday for Nuwul....and im so glad it went smoothly....The plan was that me,liyana and nuwul and azzah will do our fyp collation at the esplanade library then somehow we will come up wif a reason to go to the esplanade rooftop.... Then seatea and eliza will suddenly come with a cake and surprise nuwul wif their presence...i actually accidentaly said somthing i shudnt....im such a bad lier..haha but ouh wells all in all i think it went rather well although the actually plan was suppose to be carried out at an earlier time and we couldnt get away early enuf.....The expression on nuwuls face when she saw eliza and seatea wif the cake was priceless.....we ate the yummy chocolate cake...camwhored under the sun, had hugging session and we all had soo soo much fun...

Hope u enjoyed it my dear...Happy early Birthday NURUL......Sorry ill be away on ur birthday and might not be able to wish u on the actual day....I LOVE U NUWUL....enjoy ur birthday yeah..=)

The yummylicious cake =)

us with the birthday girl

group picture =)

me and seatea

me and princessy eliza

yummy cake

a hug from liyana =)

I HEART MY DARLS LOTS!

less than 12 hours and ill be flying off to Australia....be back in 10 days...im gonna miss u people lots...enjoy the remaining holidays darls=)

2007-06-05T23:07:00.000+08:00

Been really busy this days with Fyp--> trying to get as many doctors as we can to interview coz that jim tan apparently managed to get an attachment with TTSH on next week which i couldnt attend it at all...SooOOO Irritating...Ouh wells i told him beforehand from months ago so its not my fault...pfft..
It was seriously not easy to get a doctor to consent to us interviewing them...It was tough..We met grumpy receptionist, rude doctors, Nice doctor like Victor *winks and of course some other problems.....It was really tiring especially today.me, liy and nuwul practically walked around Toa Payoh and Braddel..It was really a very funny getting lost experience...Haha met an old indian apek who called us gorgeous! met and old pakcik who was trying to disturb us and us if we need a lift...theres sooo many weird people around..HaHa
..continuing our doctor hunt again tmr...lets just pray we get more =)

*3 More Days

2007-05-28T23:17:00.000+08:00

There are two days in every week about which we should not worry, two days which should be kept free from fear and apprehension.

One of these days is Yesterday with all its mistakes and cares, its faults and blunders, its aches and pains. Yesterday has passed forever beyond our control.All the money in the world cannot bring back Yesterday.

We cannot undo a single act we performed; we cannot erase a single word we said. Yesterday is gone forever.

The other day we should not worry about is Tomorrow with all its possible adversities, its burdens, its large promise and its poor performance;
Tomorrow is also beyond our immediate control.

Tomorrow's sun will rise, either in splendor or behind a mask of clouds, but it will rise.Until it does, we have no stake in Tomorrow, for it is yet to be born. '

This leaves only one day,
Today.Any person can fight the battle of just one day.It is when you and I add the burdens of those two awful eternities Yesterday and Tomorrow that we break down. It is not the experience of Today that drives a person mad,it is the remorse or bitterness of something which happened Yesterday and the dread of what Tomorrow may bring.

Let us, therefore, Live but one day at a time and make today the best day of everyday.

2007-05-23T22:23:00.000+08:00

If you could have one wish come true, what would tat be?

I wonder......

2007-05-21T12:08:00.000+08:00

Saturday

Shahirs birthday party at the chalet was fun. Went there early to help out. Me and sis even had time to go swimming...Coolness..
There was soo much food and whats the best was that i was in charge of the games and the kids were simply cute..We played one minute of fame and some of them were dancing, some were singing and one pair even did some acting..cuteness..The funniest game was the apple game played by the adult couples...super funny seeing them trying hard to bite the tied up apples...i was laughing soo much at them...
Fahmi introduced me to his group of frens and most of them was like disturbing me with one guy coz apparently this guy likes me or sth...His frens all ask me to take picture with this guy but i didnt want to of course then fahmi said he'll take picture together with us so tat it would not be awkward..and u noe wat when the picture was about to be taken he moved away and in the end in the pic left me and tat guy...goodness...but at least we were standing like so far apart...fahmi makes sure of tat...he told his fren dont even dare touch or stand near me....protective cuzzin there.....
Din get to talk much to gf tat day as she had to leave early....slept late as i helped to clean the place after everyone left.

Sunday

Woke up early in the morning and went jogging wif dad and bro...we jog all the way to bedok jetty...It was soo cooling and peaceful...i like..went to the airport then to have lunch...ill be back there in like 2 more weeks plus....and taking my flight to auzi..i cant wait!

Darls lets all go to the beach again soon!

i got more admirers coming in....and i dun need any of them not rite now at least..im very happy wif my life .....

2007-05-17T23:30:00.000+08:00

Are You A Season, Reason Or Lifetime?
Grabbed from mentee's blog =)

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON. . . It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

*its a fact that people come and go...if they walked away and come back again, things will never be the same no matter wat..

2007-05-08T22:41:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday 2 u! Happy Birthday 2 U! Happy Birthday Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday 2 u! A sweet 17 th Birthday to my dearest Brother..

Look at how much he change....From cute to Good-Looking....
The Best Bro anyone could have...may he suceed in his life and achieve what he dreams for...

I mite not say this often but i LoVe HIM lots..=)

2007-05-07T22:44:00.000+08:00

Saturday 5th May
We had an early celebration of bros birthday...His birthday party was a blast...There was so much food...some of it i made them myself..lols..his classmates was super friendly and nice and i guess everyone enjoyed it.. Even his jc teacher came for his birthday and he even had time for some teaching session with them...how hardworking..anyways bro received lots of different brand of perfume..i lost count of it.and lots others...

One funny thing all my uncles realized..almost all the girls in the family from my aunties to my mum to cherry to me to ika was all wearing like almost the same fashion kind of dress...it was sooo funny...the guys was making fun of us...
and i had a long talk wif gf at the corridors...nicee...
Pics will be posted up soon =)

Sunday 6th May
Went to the dentist after like ages and ages...went to polish my teeth too..then mum saw some facial spa at cosmetics laboratory and asked me to go try for it...and i did..it was a whole face spa package..almost $60 over dollars......my first tym ever...super cool...i was like anticipating for wats comes next all the time...it feels soo good especially the salt mask..soo cooling that i nearly fell asleep there...and i had a neck and shoulder message too...it was soo relaxing and heavenly..i feel soo pampered..i like...
Thanks a lot mummy! im gona save up and go for another spa..it feels so good!

Pampered and blessed..i dun need anything else!

2007-05-04T13:51:00.000+08:00

Subject: Azzahra bte anwar
Age: 18+
Height: 164cm
Weight : 52kg
Suffering from slight fashion disaster

Being fashion consultant for a day was really superly duperly fun......after fyp me nuwul and azzah went to bugis to start our mission to transform azzah...we really didnt like the way she always wear sports shoe, backpack with jeans and t-shirts every single day to school and of course the high waist belt she always wears.
So what we wanted to do was to change from her clothes to bag to shoes so that she looks more fashionable...First up Finding the right shoes for her. This prove to be rather tedious as we have to find a shoe that matches her since shes so not used to wearing heels. after around more than an hour of touring the bugis street we finally found all the right stuff for her...and i think shes gona look real nice wif the changes..=) will post up the pictures of her and her new stuffs soon..
And So if u need any fashion consultants just dont hesitant to call up me or nuwul...haha

It was a tedious but enjoyable day...lets do it again girls...

2007-05-02T01:53:00.000+08:00

im like so lazy to blog this days....instead been reading alot...back to my nerdy self...hehe

i still love school though because of the people there...the modules are not tat bad so far...lab management is like soo easy..i prefer proteomics to genomics anytime..but its kinda hard sometimes to understand the faci's accent..ouh wells..

.im trying to enjoy sch as much as possible rite now since i have less than one year left before i graduate..nuwul and me both new shoes tat time and we wore it too school...i ended up having blisters...gosh..soo irritating

ME and CAM WHORE buddy seatea

My DARLS who never fails to make me laugh =)

E new shoes

Monday
went out for bowling at yishun safra wif azzah, mum bro and sis since bro wasnt schooling tat day...quite sometym since i last played but it was not bad...beat all of them but perhaps coz bro was tired from going out the whole day...Anyways u shud just go see yishun safra if u haven been there yet...the place is so hotel like...really nice...i like it a lot...=)

I won this game...surprisingly =)

2007-04-25T00:23:00.000+08:00

Do u noe me well enuf? Go answer the questions to find out!

Create your own Friend Test here

2007-04-23T22:15:00.000+08:00

It doesnt really feel like school this days....more like holidays...and thats because i have tuesdays and Wednesdays for my holidays each week....its only 3 days of school...How wonderful is tat...Bliss...its so fun to be able to relax and go out during weekdays..=)
And i cant believe im a Year 3..im like going to graduate in less than a year! Wow time just passes so so fast...One more year of enduring and off we go...Ive been asking my friends this days what and where they are going to after getting the diplomas...Everyone seems to be going all over the place...but ouh wells i noe that no matter where each one of us end up at, we'll still be as close as ever and i love u people for dat......even if u people were to go to the end of the world, ill make sure we'll keep in contact...

And....Today was like the most chaotic day ever and thanks to Missy Peter..it was just so hilarious if u could just see each one of our expression when he suddenly came in to class...We seriously thought he was some pretty girl who went into the wrong class...we were practically staring.....even Banu tot she was hot. Suddenly banu was exclaiming loudly ouh my gosh and i started looking at the girls face properly. I nearly fell out of my chair when i saw it was peter...The whole class was fooled...All of us started laughing so loudly......he totally look like a girl with those fake boobs and long leggins and tight dress....so funny....even Liyana tot he was some angmoh girl...sheesh..hahaha...can you imagine he specially did his eyebrows for $14 just for this cos play dress up?.worst than a girl.....but seriously i think he looks better looking like a girl than a guy..everybody seems to think so too...I tell u this guy is seriously weird..we dunnoe wat he'll come up with ..ever.....ouh wells i have an eccentric classmate but who cares...he amuses me and the rest of us....

*perhaps i was just a bit too much there....i had to do what i had too..

2007-04-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

Today went SHOPPING SHOPPING SHOPPING! haha...so fun...didnt really planned to actually...just cudnt resist buying those nice stuffs i saw...hehe...went out wif ika today and had lunch together with a.an at lau pa sat then we went far east and i bought a shite belt and a heart bracelet. I saw this super nice white bufferfly bag but it was too small to use for sch so didnt get it.went to bugis then .ika bought a shoeat far east for 19.90 and she was so unhappy when she found the exact same shoe at bugis for $16..haha...i was disturbing her abt it all the way.... Ouh ya met some irritating mats who was disturbing and wana get to noe me...luckily ika saved me from it...

Found a bag i liked for sch...its really big...easy to stuff in everything inside..bought for my mum a dress too...i think it looks good on her...and got for my sis a complete makeup set from sasa...ouh wells i still have lots of things that i wana buy but must control this bad habit of mine...but i swear ill get it sooner or later...Ouh wells i enjoyed today lots...Thanks gf for following me around to buy my stuffs!

*Guilty, angry and everything else....im just like so anti guys rite now alrites...so irritating

2007-04-12T23:46:00.000+08:00

Monday

Went out wif eliza gf. We went far east..wanted to do some shopping but couldnt find anything nice coz most of the shops not opened yet...went this fashion and eliza is fascinated by the trenchcoat and gona get one soon...hehe...then we went to my workplace to collect my pay cheque...like finally! i can like shop.....but din really see anything else that is nice..so we went to the library and actually cam whored there...a bit lame i noe..out of all places the library! hahahahaha...but ouh wells, i simply love the wide collection of books there =)

IN SEARCH OF.....

i wun make the effort to meet u if i dun want to...and i dun like to give nice excuses for not meeting...ill just get straight to the point.

2007-04-07T15:36:00.000+08:00

I had the most enjoyable blastaking time eversince i got back my social life.. Its soo soo good meeting up with people whom i haven seen for ages, catching up with each other, it just feels so soo sooooo good...So here goes all the activities for the past week..

Thursday 29th March

Had fyp meeting in the morning at sch..Met up with my darls after 6 weeks...Super happy!
After fyp meeting we went out to Marina..had Lunch then went to watch Music & Lyrics...Sweet show..I love the song....then hang out at the esplanade...It was good catching up with this people and of course we had lots of cam whoring! i like....

Monday 2nd April

Was supposed to meet up with the 4 of them for research studied of fyp. End up sha, liyana and azzah fell sick and so only me and nurul went down to SP to do research..both of us were like some lost souls dunnoe where the library at sp is located..we had to rely on the maps all the time
but finally we made it...we actually managed to sit down and read the research books there for almost 3 hours..impressive knowing how short my attention span is like...haha...its true that i become more knowledgeable but at the same time the more i read the more i realise theres lots of things i dunnoe rite nurul?
..me and nurul were walking by the road at sp when there was this 2 pizza guys stopped beside us and pratically looked at us from top to bottom...me and nuwul was super stunned just stand there rooted...then after sometime they went off..for goodness sake that was just super rude stopping and staring like that...some guys this days are just sooo rude...*tsk tsk
We went down to ps after that coz we wanted to get sme notebook and i wanted a get a bag for camp. we managed to find notebooks there...nuwul cudnt decide whether she wanted the black one or the bright reddish pinkish one...it was funny looking at her being so stressful just choosing the one she wanted..at last she settles for the red one.
..enjoyed the day with nuruls company..=)

Tuesday & Wednesday 3rd & 4th April

Went back to sch for the SAS Fop camp..its like one of the most boring camp ever except for the gala nite. I really loved the gala nite. the performances were entertaining and sheikhs rendition of right here waiting for u was really good...he really got a great voice..the food was so so..all in all it was okay i guess...but able to meet people was great...talked to big zul, mira, sal and ash...it was great meeting all this peeps...

Thursday 5th April

Met up with my Girlfren...We cudnt stop talking about everything...went to ps first coz tot of collecting my paycheque but in the end the cheque was not ready yet..*grr...i want my money...
proceeded to vivo then..we were addicted tt the song girlfren by avril...and our favourite quote for the day "what are the odds" super funny if u just knew wat we used tat line for...practically everything...i enjoyed my time with her...looking forward to another date next thursday..

Friday 6th April

Went to the airport with the whole family + datuk and nenek. Treated them to food and swensens..Chocolate ice creams;my favourite...=)

(pics for this will be updated soon)

Someone smsed me and asked me out after ages....and another asked me if i would consider him...how amusing

2007-03-28T22:10:00.000+08:00

Today was a really really good day...

i was happy looking forward to my last day at work...i want my social life...and got to take a break for myself wats wif fyp starting and all...

Then in the morn otw to the mrt station i saw him...i was seriously surprised. after all its been 6 years since ive really met him face to face...and hes really tall and good looking...looks so chinese..and i cant hep but remember all those times years ago when we kept disturbing each other..me call him short and him calling me giraffe and all....now im the short one...he used to be the popular guy in sch...girls will literally flock ard him in sch even when we were literally only pri sch kids...while i was there wondering wat they saw in him and now i finally saw it...it was like woah, my heart skipped a beat..anyways i was walking behind him and his fren...i wanted to get 8 days so i walked beside his fren and cut just right infront of him...i saw him pausing for a while and looking at me....i guess he recognizes me...but i din want to turn and look at him
...but seriously just seeing him all this while made my day and i was smilling sheepishly all the way in the mrt...

at work i was enjoying my last day there walking all over the places seeing it for perhaps the last time...even when it rains while out for lunch it didnt manage to spoilt my mood coz as i was abt to get drenched, there was tHis lady which came and shared her umbrella wif me...like how sweet is tat...

at the end of the day i personally went to each of my collegue and express my gratitude to them...This collegues of mine are one of the best peple ive met...although i might be just a temp staff, they made me feel so belong...they have guided me wif patience, care for me and it was just so overwhelming for me tat i had tears in my eyes as i was leaving the office...in this short 6 weeks plus, i have form a bond with this people whom ive never met at all all this time and im glad to have met them and able to learn so much from this job...

*here comes my social life!

2007-03-21T22:39:00.000+08:00

My work place has become a chinese speaking territory this days, Every since my collegues knew i could speak chinese, they've been speaking chinese to me all the way...and i actually replied all back in chinese..haha..i actually feel comfortable taking to them in chinese...They all call me xiomei (small sis) now...and evelyn actually took a pic of me wif her phone saying she wana keep it as a memory .. she keep commenting i look so sweet in the pic...haha

Without realising, ive actually form a bond with these people...They are all so nice, having lots of patience teaching me, guiding me all the way..after all i no nuts abt accounting..they treat me to snacks all the time, they made me feel a sense of belonging there though i might just be a temp staff. im gona miss all this when i leave the company but its just inevitable i guess...lets just make the best of the time left...

* Darls, i miss u people lots....cant wait for the meetup..

2007-03-20T22:52:00.000+08:00

Saturday

The whole family went to VIVO...i went there before but this time is slightly different coz its night time! i just like the atmosphere of the whole place..Soo peaceful..I Love it...U people go try going vivo at nite...its really nice...

We Love the waters

sexy enuf?

My sis & her bf

They mean the world to me

Nth can get me down

Hobbies=taking pic

Carefree

Sunday

Went over to k.Mas house to help do bunga telur for her wedding...Its actually very nice...lilies with towels inside...so pretty...went swimming wif ika and sis...didil was so funny...tried to act emo but cannot make it...

2007-03-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

I've quit student ambassadors.....I used to enjoy going to this ig a lot actually.....i grew a lot all this time i was in ambassador participating in all the events and activities that i went through...Actually its really not easy to get in to be an ambassador. firstly u have to go for an interview..after getting selected from the interview u have to attend a selection camp where they will rate u based on ur performance and personality. the ones that did not make it will be kicked out...from there the selected few chosen will have to go through a probation of 2-3 months where the seniors will grade the juniors performance. Only after passing all tHis then u are certified as a student ambassador but in a way they will still keep on monitoring ur attendance and all...its a tough process...and i was estatic when i was first selected to be an ambassador...but now no longer..i guess the ig just change so much especially since recently and i dun find the bonding like it was used to be....and knowing me and how i hate prolonging things i chose to quit..

This ig really gives me a lot of memories, from being a youth mentor to secondary sch to welcoming queen elizabeth to organizing camps and workshops, emceeing..so much more..ive really learnt and grew up alot....In the process i met a lot of cool people..and i wana say to all my sa peeps...although i might not be in sa anymore...i will always treasure u peeps. u people have made a difference in my life...All the best in ur future endeavours...

2007-03-13T22:30:00.000+08:00

Im still not feeling well....and how can i ever get well when everyones at work is like sick too...the disease is like all over....the latest one to get sick is my boss...She was sneezing and coughing all the way just like me...it was as if both of us took turns just to sneeze and cough....but her condition is worst than mine....her voice now is like so sexy...haha..tats actually wat she keeps saying whenever she called the clients, her collegues etc...

Ouh wells the only thing that cheers me up at work is the peeps and Class 95fm. Class 95fm accompanied me throughout my whole 9 hours at work...whenever im stressed out..ill just sing to whatever song tat was playing on air...The peeps at work are all so nice...even the boss....they treat me very well......and just recently found out they are crazy over korean drama too and one of my collegue even brought a goong-princess hours calender to work....i photocopied it...so cute...

even the people who are not in my department are like super friendly and a lot of them ask about me...most of them actually thought i was doing accounting in poly..they were surprised that i was doing biomed.....haha...me and accounting just doesnt go together...to me this is just a learning experience...after all i noe im not going to do any more work regarding accounting in the future so y not try it now...

I just like trying stuffs. i want to be able to say ive done tat even though it might be once but to me it makes a whole lot of difference..just like i used to have the phobia of height but whenever i saw something new even though it expects me to go high up or watsoever ill still try it and now ive overcomed that phobia...perhaps one day ill overcome my phobia of cats and ull actually see me hugging one (the thought of doing tat enters my mind and it freaks me out) ...but ouh wells who noes rite i might actually do tat. life is too short...we should experience new things and make the best out of it...

*im missing the times we spent together..

2007-03-13T21:46:00.000+08:00

Saturday

Went out wif family to see the budget terminal. Its considered super super small compared to the terminal 1 & 2 but it reminds me of some portion of perth international airport just tat of course perth one is so much bigger...

anyways went to parkway after tat...Wana get a shirt for my dad but there wasnt any decent one ard end up not buying anything and eating at kfc instead..

i'll just walk away......

Sunday
went to suntecs IT fair and gosh there was so so many people that we had to squeeze through to walk..it was tat crowded. I got for myself a sony Cybershot digi cam. Mum paid half for me....sweetness...

A personal digi cam.......so peeps we can camwhore more when we go out.

2007-03-08T22:47:00.000+08:00

ARGH!

I hate this..i cant seem to breathe properly...The evil flu virus has attacked me since ytd and causes me to sneeze all day long at work...and my immune system is not helping much...i wonder if they decided to take a break....Come on ...i need to get well...and my throat hurts...argh!

*the heart makes a person beautiful

2007-03-07T22:43:00.000+08:00

CHANGES

Everything ard us is constantly changing be it the time, place, situations, and of course the people too. As we grow we change be it physically or character wise. We'll become more matured, confident, attractive (ehem2), intelligent perhaps. We cant deny that during the process of growing up, we undergo a lot of changes. Its good if we change for the better, after all who doent want to be a better person but sometimes during this process of maturing and finding ourselves we tend to get strayed somewhere. To me a change can be divided in two categories. One is changing physically, the other is character wise. Changing physically can gives a surprise to the people who once know that person.....hmm let me give an example..theres this classmate of mine..same class in pri 5 & 6, he use to disturb me a lot...i browse through friendster and saw this cute, tall, fair mix guy and when i looked closer, it was actually him..gosh he changed a lot...how did he sudd become so fair when he used to be so tanned?(all thanks to fair and lovely). i mean like seriously, its such an obvious change.

AT least changing physically is not as scary as changing characterwise. Wat if one day u saw the same hair, same eyes, same face but u dun seem to recognize the person inside? Its just like suddenly an evil twin of that person just emerged in front of you. And its not easy accepting this new person as someone u knew, someone u used to be close to, someone u thought u knew well enuf, well this new person is far from that...this new person is a stranger who has invaded the body of a fren u once knew and cared for..Are u supposed to think of her as someone u knew and were once closed to or accept that person as a new person? a new friend?..

To me....It takes a really strong person to change for the better coz that person will have to overcome all the hurdles, the evil side which will keep on pushing and pushing and not letting it change for the better....and most people just dun bother and try accepting this new side of theirs....and moreover if that person has the support of the so called frens ard her, it just makes it so much worst isnt it? I believe its all up to the individual..

*i am as i am and will always be...Perhaps u can pretend to be who ure not but i cant. if i dun like it means i dun...and i dun like this new u and will never like it....i tried to help..i even tried to accept this new u but i cant lie that i dun like it....i care but perhaps to u its more of a bother and you prefer this new u and the circle of frens ard u..i dun seem to noe u anymore..Im leaving you to your world...Goodbye 4ever.....